reasons

I want to believe there is more 
to everything we do. 

I want to believe I 
chose that path for a reason
gave my love away for a reason
got out of bed this morning
for a reason. 

I want to believe that 
a kiss on new year's eve 
a glass ball found in the foam 
a favorite book 

have all created every part of me 
from the blood in my veins 
to this poem. 

I want to believe there are reasons. 

The waves that almost reach my toes 
the faint outline of someone miles down the beach. 

I want to believe there are reasons 
for how you treated me
for how I treated myself 

I want to believe there are reasons.