skating in the rain

I lay here in the sand 
the absence of you 
so prominent in my hand 
and wonder what it feels like 
to be loved 

if it’s as simple as 
a salmon rub 
a mama bear protecting her cubs 
like peace doves 

or more complicated 
like these tiny grains 
what’s firing in our brains 
skating in the rain.

I hear no soft coos 
only waves, crashing over rocks 
been a long time since we lasted 
since we talked